christmas wasnt any different this year. but i made sure it lasted. i didnt want it to come so fast, just cos that would mean it would end just as fast - . i remember christmas as a little kid. the many presents. the beams, the smiles, the parties, the laughter! the food. the joy. and the magic. christmas was always magical. we always watched homealone on christmas eve, and go to bed after. gorgore and i used to wake up really early on christmas mornings screaming and jumping around just as the whole family does on christmas! we'd run to the tree delighted as ever as we'd get to open our presents! but we had to choose! cos daddy had a rule that we could only 2 presents a day! i always thought that it was because my daddy was an awesome santa follower! and that he believed in the 12days of christmas! later i learnt that srsly, he just didnt like the bottom of our tree bare! because we werent allowed to open presents on christmas eve, we always got up SUPPPER early on christmasday, and the first show on we'd watch as we prepared for breakfast was peewee's playhouse. it was our tradition! we'd feast on ribs, ham, chicken/log cake from the nightbefore. just before noon time, we'd head of to our uncle's + grandpas house (they were neighbours) and spend the whole christmas day there! it was christmas magic ++++ times one billion! christmas was always perfect like that! presents + presents + MORE PRESENTS!
xiaoyi's present was ALWAYS the bestest and we ALWAYS looked forward to getting presents from her! (daddy's and mummy's should count right! since we PICK THEM UP OURSELVES!) but xiaoyi ALWAYS got us what we wanted. or what we'd NEVER dream we would have, or the coolest most unimaginable thing! but always what we wanted! even at my age now/ gorgor + all my cousins still look forward to xiaoyi's present!
but i dont know when all that came crashing to a stop. when channel5 stopped being christmassy and cut down their christmas shows to like one a year? they dont even play christmas/santa movies on christmas eve anymore. + once boxing day comes, all the movies that dont make sense play. i feel really cheated! like they robbed my precious memories away. because channel5 was always on when i was growing up, before cable came, and there's something about tvvv that always sound brighter than dvds!
i know i sound very superficial like im missing the point. but i felt that those santa movies brought in the magic of christmas, let nonchristians realise that there WAS something more to christmas. something we look forward to, whether ure christians or not, that there would be widespread love on christmas day, and it deserved the celebration. if ppl understood just for a moment why we loved christmas so much, or just stopped to ponder where christmas came about, maybe they'd realised that our dear Lord Jesus was born. i always felt that whether you believe in christmas or not, everybody needs a little love. a little something to believe in. SO WHY KILL IT ):
ever since my aunt passed away & gramps got sicked and passed, christmas hadnt felt like christmas in a long time. i know christmas isnt about the people. the ham, the tree, or the presents. but the love shared amongst people and how the love could only be present with baby Jesus is what i treasure most about christmas. cos i dont think there'd be any other time on earth where even friends tell each other how much they love each other.
i believe in christmas; i believe in its miracles. i believe in the birth of our saviour. i believe in salvation. i believe in hope. joy. peace. i believe in goodness. i believe in the pureness of God's love, and i believe it can wash us as white as snow. i believe its the one day where miracles truly happen. hearts soften. smiles widen, families draw closer, people grow warmer.
i realised ive changed. grown more cynical, grown more sensitive, grown more appreciative, grown sentimental. grown realistic. sucks to be me right ): exactly what kenneff says; i also say.
i felt that narnia and i had a huge connection. where lucy and edmund were normal people here in the real world, reminiscing of their experience -cos they're stuck in this world as kids- so all they can do is think of where they've been too, and reminisce. there's a place where you can be absolutely amazing. a place where you'll fit in. uplifting, inspirational. although in retrospect, the relation was meant to highlight our relative stay on earth. (:
and at the end of the day, like reepeerchii the mouse - someday i'll find the exact place i belong. and i have. (: bmc, and i will be able to do really amazing things for God.
There's a place out there for us, more than just a prayer or anything you've ever dreamed of. So if you feel like giving up cause you don't fit in down here, fear is crashing in, close your eyes and take my hand.
We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe. It's written in the stars that shine above, a world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong, exactly who we are is just enough there's a place for us, there's a place for us.
When the water meets the sky, where your heart is free and hope comes back to life, when these broken hands are whole again, well will find what we've been waiting for, we were made for so much more
We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe. It's written in the stars that shine above, a world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong, exactly who we are is just enough, there's a place for us, there's a place for us
So hold on, now hold on, there's a place for us
We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe. It's written in the stars that shine above, a world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong, exactly who we are is just enough, exactly who we are is just enough, there's a place for us.
i really want a lion as a pet now. aslan is so huggable! just like jesus (: this songgg is so naice! narnia is GOOD! we watched it randomly tday! 3D goggles were abit wonky i watched half the show without it! but it was too irresistable! i loved it (: it had the feel good effect! the song after the movie before the credits rolled just made it so perfect!
i realised that being in sgp arh. hahah really super look/cool conscious society. like when i was with lasspig, she whipped out her ipad and made me play this train game. but the thing is, with that ipad, im suddenly cool, and without it no one wanna serve us properly! and then she insisted on letting me listen to a recording where her p1 kid sang the whole taylor swift song to her. SHOCKED. like how can he memorise the song better than me! again, when i was walking these two primary school kids whipped out their iphones and like started comparing stuff on it, and i was like
- ass, srsly is every single kid like that!? like why would a p1 need an iphone!? pig: yarrr! now like that one! every primary school kid will take out their iphone ipods and compare it all one.
totally shocker! like i dont think i would want my kids having and valuing this kinda stuff at sucha young age luh. how can the world come to a point in time that a kid's self-worth is built upon gadgets and stuff that fades away? i would feel real sad if no one wanted to be my friend cos i dont own an iphone (this is directed at you kenneeff!)
when im in aussie my friends say that comparatively - sgporeans have so much expectations to live up to.
sorry for the next photo! but i was watching E! so bimbotic right i know, but who cares, yar and they were playing guess me from behind. TOTALLY COULDNT GUESS KAE! i was like _ why so porny. and like the show ppl guess tila tequila, but srsly. my whole earth shook this morning!
dear blair, what's wrong with you! you broke my heart!
