you've got me and Jesus
im mandeef, benny. whichever whatever. recently, ive seen Jesus telling me we are indeed nothing without him! everyday with Jesus is sweeter than the day before. INDEED! god loves you!|
NI ROCK! happypurfbday (:
Written on: Thursday, June 25, 2009
hhaha. ive never met anyone so similar to me before! like thinking and every hullabullo hippy dippy clappy slappy secret thoughts that runs through my head. last time i used to get shock by it but now i just smile when i see what you see! you make me laugh like shitxxxzz and you really brighten up alot of my boring days! your clueless ness's classic! and your tootness very kute! u say i drive u crazy with my dumbness! YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY WITH YOUR IGNORANCE! + lack of comprehension skill! as strange as this may sound, i think my life would really suck without you! (: u are gross! + think youre sexy hot and kute. and when u stand against the sun, you make west become east. everything else i wanna say, you prolly already know! if not read ur card again and again!Time: 12:00 AM  happy birthday small one! love you deep deep high high wide wide. with all my love, mountain. i wonder whether its pms or its just me
Written on: Tuesday, June 23, 2009
if its gonna be so sian leaving why come back!? and for the fact of the matter! why leave in the first place!Time: 9:32 PM daddy used to say that in my first few years! like "who ask you want to go overseas and study! its your own fault" and it is mine to begin with! but i think he has soften up alot these years! my daddy could never understand why girls had pms, why girls cried, why girls whined, or why girls could never seem to make up their minds. he laughs when i buy shavers and waxstrips and still blushes if i tell him i need to get pads! i remember once when i was like 13 or smth he told me " use wisely ar, dont anyhow use!" and i was like O.O what!? what the heck!? hurhurhruhrur. clueless male. but daddy's way kute like that luh! can see how he has grown older and how God can do miracles! although this break's so short, less than even a mth for me here! but i would still be leaving with this sinking heavy feeling deep down in my heart. i dont wish anymore that i could stay, but i still do wished that i could take all my friends and family and food with me to melby. so i wonder whether its just me or the pms. WHY DOES IT FEEL SO ____________. think lassie will be the only one that understands this stupid whine. okay bye! i just needed to get it off my brain. 10DAYS
Written on: Sunday, June 21, 2009
and i'll be backTime: 7:42 PM i havent even finish my reports ): frickin so much to read! why's the sky blue
Written on: Thursday, June 11, 2009
sometimes people read me even better than i know it.Time: 10:38 AM will you be there when the world stops turning. will you be there when the storm is through. will you buy me a ticket to the end of the rainbow? someday we'll know why samson loved delilah. OHMYGAWD! NO WONDER IVE GOT NO FRIENDS + I SQUASHED POT'S TISSUE BOX. i gained 3 kg. SHITZO. SHITZOOOOOOO! SHITZOOOO LUH!. OMG. no more supper! + no more maltesers! + running + jogging next sem. I DONT CARE. swimming. whatever. SHITZ MANDA! congrats luh manda. U TIPPED THE SCALE MAN! okay im going to loose weight! GOING GOING GOING! its the peak man. this time its serious siaoness. GOT A SHOCK OF MY LIFE. the only one that didnt "eeee-you-got-swineflu" to me
Written on: Wednesday, June 10, 2009
because she forgot :/Time: 1:49 AM  that said; only one who took a real piktchar with me! god take your control
Written on: Friday, June 05, 2009
ive had the most - draining semester i would think?Time: 8:59 AM im just about ready to crash and die. and even before that, ive got so many prayers to pray. so many thoughts i dont know what to do. my world's really simple. everything you do's either black or white. you're either fat or you're not. wrong- or not; deaf or not; love God, or not. hungry- or not. no one's ever half pregnant right? i was beggining to really feel the way driel blogged yesterday. isnt the world so clear, God's desires so prominant and distinct. why do humans go one big round to inflict hurt and pain, when god's love's just there? why do we not EVER realise how we can never be self-sufficient. never be pleased. never be satisfied if we do things our way? i want to know you i want to hear your voice i want to feel you more than before my sheep knows my voice. GOD! help me to say things of you and not of the human flesh. help me to think. and be wise. help me to take a moment to ponder, WHAT HAS MY STAND GOTTA DO WITH PEOPLE?! and at the end of the day, help me to help them. as i said, black's black. white's white. ive begun to realise. that the more i try to tell people black's black, and white's white. i sound so stupid. its just like how just saying ' the bible says this and this!' and people dont understand. you cant just force ur believes on people. when u do that; it'll be as if they've gone color blind. your view of the world over theirs/ color over color. more of you Jesus. GOD, what an insight though ive only slept for one hour last night! Written on: Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Time: 6:32 AM  my every semester in australia has to come with the poisoning of food. :/ what's new right. last year i diarrhea-ed till i fainted i am pretty sure. it was the killerous dirrhea ive ever had to go through even lomotil didnt work! dunno whether to poo or puke. urghhh. anyway! is it the nerves? or is it the bull. im struck with a bout of. food poisoning again luh ): wanna die ready. its giving me headaches all that toxic. puking not funny! the only comfort i get from all this is the hope that i will loose weight! my aunty used to say, 'you want beauty- surely painful'. anyway the puking is driving me yucky crazy. let's just see whether i'll still be a glutton after this. URGH! |