suddenly i wondered wondered whether this life's really worth living. even those with Jesus in our hearts are already so lonely when we forget to focus on him! i had nosy people. do you know that? and i hate all those girls that get to know me because they think my friend is cute. omgggg. how shallow is that! they prolly feed on mashmallow ever other meal. i think when people keep probbing i'll tell them things to shut them up ): i think i have to watch my words ): GOSH! i hate new environments some times. you dunno who to trust and i dont want a whole other FAKE C. .hahaha. that night jem said, aye bennett why everywhere you go YOU GET IT AR. and then this guy called jarred looked at me and say, because ure innocent.


IM NOT IM NOT IM NOT. i dont wanna be! i get very frustrated! because innocent naive and stupid all rock the same boat in unknown environemnets!

but still ,


how can i stand here; and not be moved by you.


when i leap, run, jump, fly, soar. it makes me feel like ive left it all behind. makes me feel like i can stretch even higher then. when i get that ball. makes me forget every single worry, makes me forget everything uncool. i did it.

that's netball for you. but im too fat. too slow. too out of shape now and i feel sad.