if its gonna be so sian leaving why come back!? and for the fact of the matter! why leave in the first place!

daddy used to say that in my first few years! like "who ask you want to go overseas and study! its your own fault" and it is mine to begin with! but i think he has soften up alot these years! my daddy could never understand why girls had pms, why girls cried, why girls whined, or why girls could never seem to make up their minds. he laughs when i buy shavers and waxstrips and still blushes if i tell him i need to get pads! i remember once when i was like 13 or smth he told me " use wisely ar, dont anyhow use!" and i was like O.O what!? what the heck!? hurhurhruhrur. clueless male. but daddy's way kute like that luh! can see how he has grown older and how God can do miracles!

although this break's so short, less than even a mth for me here! but i would still be leaving with this sinking heavy feeling deep down in my heart. i dont wish anymore that i could stay, but i still do wished that i could take all my friends and family and food with me to melby.

so i wonder whether its just me or the pms. WHY DOES IT FEEL SO ____________. think lassie will be the only one that understands this stupid whine. okay bye! i just needed to get it off my brain.