i wish it would all go away.

maybe i could dissappear and start off new again.



its grampie's 98 birthday today. i wonder whether they celebrate birthdays in heaven. maybe god's too busy singing grampie happybirthday to realise what's going on. that said. good for him. im happy grampie's celebrating his birthday then. i know i just said the most ridiculous statement on earth.


grampie i wished i was still young again. going to grampie's after church on sunday. i wished i was young again, where my beloved grandfather will tell me its okay. treat people how you would be treated and your days will be long. but grampie. you never ever got to the part where what if you do that, and shitz comes back to you. then what do you do. stay and get trampled over?

i dunno. i miss you gramps ): if only i hadnt come to aussie? perhaps i wouldnt have missed 3 years of hanging out with you.