tmr's the last day of 2009!

i dont even remember what happened this year! everything seemed to speed by. many things have changed my mindset, and majority of my perceptions. ive however grown to truly realise the blessings that come with joy. being happy was never a hard thing for me, even through my angsty days and the days after. i rmb friends always writing in my christmas cards about me living in this bubble of joy. seemed like when the bubble shattered, the way i saw things all became really different. i dont really have much to say, and i dont really find the need to talk much anyways. words are just words, people - just people. people always fail you, because we are only human. but i dont find any credibility in that excuse. people are always conscious of the efforts we make, the choices we create for ourselves, and the failures that arise.

it would only take a gracious heart to understand mishaps, not excuses of human errs.

i know wonny says my blog is emoey. but sometimes blogs just make you realise how human people actually are. through the emo, what's most impt is that my hope is still in GOD alone, and well joy,- joy doesnt come easy but is indeed god's blessing in big ways and small.


as this year come to an end, i say: my heart is still really heavy.


GOD. find me before i ruin my new year being so angsty and cynical! (:

Psalms 42:11
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God