eastercamp, has come and gone, conference's is coming, going soon. ohman. you dont know howmuch has changed over one week, one month, over even just a couple of days spent away from civilisation. you dunno what it is to literally pray and intercede and watch God's power and spirit come and fall upon the very situation that you've been fasting and praying over. people change, people move on. but whao! ive never felt so different? like im completely different? and i only realised that when i met korkor and aunty mabel and deborah. like im really a billion times different! billions babye. and i dont ever want this to stop! im really really afraid things might change when i go back to sgp, when i live life like my GOD's in outer space and im in my astronaut suit. right now right here even, i feel that there's so many things to do. so much more in life. the more people dont understand me, the more i dont fit in instantly, the more i have to work to understand people, the more i have to pray for our differences,

the more i see its only through God that things actually happen!

i dunno. i just wanna sit and read and chill with music. i wanna think. i wanna enjoy life. i wanna have time for people. have time to do things. paint. plant orchids. sew. knit. chill.

i think i just painted the life of a tai tai.




AJ RAFAEL makes me feel so squirmy and happy!


GOD'S SO AMAZING YES! there were alot of things i learnt over this period. unchanging love, amazing love, mercy and grace that flowed from the cross. it was so hard to leave all my friends, leave my home and comfort friends. to be all alone, with people who dont understand me for me, and myself really, so ignorant, different to the different ways people talk and act. i never knew i was that different from people. maybe really, all my friends talk in the same way, breathe, eat live, laugh cry, in the almost exact way. we're tough yes. we cant be weak yo. and just being me made me very noob to sensitiveness. and i guess. im not the kinda girl to pity girls cos there's no room for pity where i grew up. SO HARD AR. i dunno what to do ar. that's WHY I JUST WANNA CHILL THINK and STOP LIVING FOR THE DAMN MONEY CHURNING SOCIETY. im leaving you with this quote on God's gift of love, that i should love, and take a bigger step to have a bigger heart! and a softer heart too right. i mean we love cos he first loved us! right. take care of the things that matter to God, and God WILL take care of the things that matter to you. UHNNHUH SO this quote about the cross was taken of someone's fb status- i think he's super super wise. i dont really think he'd mind since he should already know that he's sucha huge blessing with his wise thoughts anyway

x

By every thorn that punctured His brow. By every mark of the back lacerating scourge. By every hair of his beard plucked from his cheeks by cruel fingers. By every bruise which heavy fists made upon His head. By all the spit that landed on his face. By every drop of sinless blood that fell to the ground. By every breath of pain which Jesus drew upon the cross. God said, "I Love You"