i realised after t.d jakes' sermon yesterday, that we as humans have to worry about so many things. i already knew that we had this portrayed persona that we show to others to make them believe we are really like something we are not! but i never realised that with God as well, we try to act as this perceived good christian too. like as if he doesnt know who we are already.
and even worst! i realised that alot of people dont bother to give others second chances to know who they really are inside out/outside in. and most of all, what sucks the most, is when people have a terrible preconceived notion of you, and it never ever goes away!
i definitely THANKGOD for my friends back home! you dont know what it's like to irritate people just because you guys are different and people are unaccepting to who you really are.
i just decided to type a few things about myself that i never really noticed till i notice people notice it! :)
1.my nose is damn terrible in sgp. i sniff my watery nose in sgp alot and it sounds like im tsk-ing like irritated at ppl. most of my friends back home know that, and i kinda forget abt it, cos its my bad habit right! and it pissed someone off man!
2. i like to rub my fingernails on my lips. i like to feel the grains of my fingernails like that! its a bad habit ive always had since i was young! and i kinda always do it when i wanna sleep. when we were on our 5 hour bus right to eastercamp, i accidently did that when i was gonna sleep in the bus and zhao ming was like -what are you doing?!
3. i cant breathe and eat at the same time. because i dont breathe with my nose cos my sinus is real bad! ppl think its v annoying. but whatever luh. i need to live.
4. i drink LOADS of redbull. i think my blood fuses with redbull and flows through my veins and gets pump to all parts of my body. im perpetually sustain my super tired body with redbull because there's just so many things to do/study/places to be.
5. i am not choosy. if you ever called me choosy i feel like i wanna thwarp your head. because my parents were always very strict about wasting food and being picky, i grew up never ever wasting food. i might not like all the angmoh veggs like BROCOLLI, CAULIFLOWER, MIXED PEAS/CORN/CARROT but i would never throw them away if you cooked it for me because there was effort in it. i may stop you from buying it at the shop, but that doesnt mean im choosy lor. its just simple what why would i wanna buy something i dont even like. DOH.
6. I AM RESPONSIBLE. i may not always be on time. but i damn well know what i have to do and when i have to get it done. thanksyou v much!
7. get annoyed by people who talk to much but cant do anything for nuts.
8. im very singaporean indeed. true blue. born red and white with 5 stars and one big cresent in me. i love national day. i love the speed we do things. speed we talk. speed we make decisions. all our randomness and rate we eat. i find it so amazing that God would know SGP would be like this 9120938102938102938329472349 or smth years ago and that i would be born into such a family, with such friends and in such an aircon nation.
9. i am v proud of my parents and my grandparents. and i love them like siao.
10. this one i learn in aussie. where making friends isnt as peasy as dressing alike/ thinking alike, talking alike/ going EXACT same places/ or even liking the same music/, same shows/shopping at the same places. - i think people shouldnt be so quick to judge because no one's perfect.
OKAY. your emails will come one by one when i get internet and the busyness dies (please soon!) but my mood / thoughts/ expression of life this semester comes from the 10 things above, I THINK? yeasss. from big pictures to summarised thoughts! hurhur.
when you ask God for trees, he really gives you seeds man.
RAH. (: