i realised something over the last few weeks. its not really in the difficult times when shit happens that i feel God's not with me. it's actually when im living a very mundane week, a week where days fly by without me knowing, without any accomplishment, or without achieving any target goal. When life's just life as we know it. nothing beautiful, nothing amazing. no vision, no mission. its these times that i actually feel furthest from God. hahaha. bummer took me 21 years to actually really know that.

only you can make me whole
give me strength to make me grow
come holy spirit.
fall afresh on moi.

fall afresh on me Lord.