dear flipsy,

i have finally told you the biggest ultimate secret of my life. and it feels really really really good. i have envisioned this scene in my head thousands of times over and over again, but i've never quite known how i should start, or even worst, how i should end. the words get jumbled over; and nothing seemed to make sense. neither the start, not the end, worst, not even in between. at our level of friendship; it was so hard! would i be betraying you? your trust in me? your faith in me? my value in myself? or was i really just ultimately betraying myself. i didnt really know. pride? but i already fell. you were the only one that knew me like an open book. even if i was sleeping. i was supposed to be strong. smart. stable. but yet;

it was very hard for me to actually begin to open my mouth. i guess your approval of my coolness lied on it! (just kidding. HUR) i guess if you hated me, then there's really not much coolness in the world ready right. srsly i swear its like that. i wouldnt want you to ever not be my friend. but i didnt know what to do if i wasnt that friend you met anymore. i know its all rubbish and bull but now its over, i realized why we were such great friends after all. i love you awesome. srsly. you rock



xxx

flips

p.s. i cant believe till today u think my blog's nobutterlovesme. SRSLYYYY?!!?!?!!
p.p.s told you girls always write entries directed at someone or because of their emotions (:(:(: