christmas wasnt any different this year. but i made sure it lasted. i didnt want it to come so fast, just cos that would mean it would end just as fast - . i remember christmas as a little kid. the many presents. the beams, the smiles, the parties, the laughter! the food. the joy. and the magic. christmas was always magical. we always watched homealone on christmas eve, and go to bed after. gorgore and i used to wake up really early on christmas mornings screaming and jumping around just as the whole family does on christmas! we'd run to the tree delighted as ever as we'd get to open our presents! but we had to choose! cos daddy had a rule that we could only 2 presents a day! i always thought that it was because my daddy was an awesome santa follower! and that he believed in the 12days of christmas! later i learnt that srsly, he just didnt like the bottom of our tree bare! because we werent allowed to open presents on christmas eve, we always got up SUPPPER early on christmasday, and the first show on we'd watch as we prepared for breakfast was peewee's playhouse. it was our tradition! we'd feast on ribs, ham, chicken/log cake from the nightbefore. just before noon time, we'd head of to our uncle's + grandpas house (they were neighbours) and spend the whole christmas day there! it was christmas magic ++++ times one billion! christmas was always perfect like that! presents + presents + MORE PRESENTS!
xiaoyi's present was ALWAYS the bestest and we ALWAYS looked forward to getting presents from her! (daddy's and mummy's should count right! since we PICK THEM UP OURSELVES!) but xiaoyi ALWAYS got us what we wanted. or what we'd NEVER dream we would have, or the coolest most unimaginable thing! but always what we wanted! even at my age now/ gorgor + all my cousins still look forward to xiaoyi's present!
but i dont know when all that came crashing to a stop. when channel5 stopped being christmassy and cut down their christmas shows to like one a year? they dont even play christmas/santa movies on christmas eve anymore. + once boxing day comes, all the movies that dont make sense play. i feel really cheated! like they robbed my precious memories away. because channel5 was always on when i was growing up, before cable came, and there's something about tvvv that always sound brighter than dvds!
i know i sound very superficial like im missing the point. but i felt that those santa movies brought in the magic of christmas, let nonchristians realise that there WAS something more to christmas. something we look forward to, whether ure christians or not, that there would be widespread love on christmas day, and it deserved the celebration. if ppl understood just for a moment why we loved christmas so much, or just stopped to ponder where christmas came about, maybe they'd realised that our dear Lord Jesus was born. i always felt that whether you believe in christmas or not, everybody needs a little love. a little something to believe in. SO WHY KILL IT ):
ever since my aunt passed away & gramps got sicked and passed, christmas hadnt felt like christmas in a long time. i know christmas isnt about the people. the ham, the tree, or the presents. but the love shared amongst people and how the love could only be present with baby Jesus is what i treasure most about christmas. cos i dont think there'd be any other time on earth where even friends tell each other how much they love each other.
i miss christmas already!